how the hell did it....?

you were the very last exception i was willing to give the world up for...for what? For nothing. there is a single shred of smoke that slips into nothingness, sounds so shrill they tear the earth apart, one sorrowful gasp to express the ordeal, the void and mostly...the space you failed to fill. why would it matter if i trampled over my good nature, if, just this once, i was more like you... if the sky crumbled at your feet. i see not, i hear not, i smell not, i taste not, i feel not...i love not. there is nothing worth loving and the rest is all a huge disappointment. no one is entitled to such a grand display of affection, not even me. i know that much, it's just that my vision gets blurry at times, it gets "blinded" by the shining of siblings such as you, of mirrors, of...disappointments. The world is undeserving and unfortunately you're part of it with all your flaws and imperfections. i want to disappear from your life forever, so nothing could evoke a question or a thought, no memories, no years, no me.